I have struggled to put my finger on the cause of it. It could be one of many reasons; Francesco, my best friend and number one supporter has gone to Italy for 3 months and our communication has been little more than e-mails and an occasional phone call. Or maybe it’s the fact that I have given away almost everything I own in anticipation of our departure to Africa. We are now living out of 4 laundry baskets at my Mom and Dad’s. It could also be the daily struggle to raise the financial support needed for Africa.
This is were running is so good for me. I was nearing the last mile and notice I had a goofy grin on my face. I had been struggling to smile for weeks and here I was running looking like the Joker. I realized that I had been dialoguing with our Father and was overflowing with joy. He gently spoke “keep your eyes on me, you have been focused on the world and I haven’t asked you to do that.” He went on to say;
” I know that you miss him but keep your eyes on me.”
” I didn’t ask you to worry about where you will live, I have a place for you just keep your eyes on me.”
” I have asked you to go and I will provide so just keep your eyes on me!”
Here I was allowing the weight of the circumstances of the world suck the joy from me. I had taken my eyes off of Him!
In Him is where real life and joy is found! Thank you Jesus for bringing this message back home to me! Thank you Jesus for that joy that overflows into joker like grins!
